Breakups

I posed the question
To push you for answers
And I guess you have been pushed too far
Maybe a time or two before me and you
Unannounced to me
I always was the last to find out
Things that deal with my heart
You said nothing
I waited on the stairs crying hoping you would come back and embrace me
You said nothing
So I packed my things
Your self righteous ass met me at the door
Your emotions neatly stacked
Ready to be rid of me
Because you're perfect
We'll I am who I am
The great I am in fact
My mother loves me covered in flaws
So you can pack those empty I love yous and I miss you baby's
Empty words aren't needed here
I'll see you on the other side
Where the grass is greener
And I'll wait to hear the words
"It was more plush where I was standing before"
I'll chuckle and say " damn you didn't know"

Homeless man in coffee shop

If a man has to use the bathroom
A man with nothing
Is it not our duty to give him the pot to piss in
Or should he be berated and embarrassed
As the public specimen he is
A cautionary sign of the lowest of the low
It reads on his chest in scarlet red: when you have nothing you get nothing

The light in me
Recognizes the light in you
Love is birthed from this space
It Is neither blind nor ignorant
But all knowing

(I was sitting, waiting, wishing) then finally dreaming

I want you here so bad
I thought I heard your voice
but 20 steps later there is nothing
silence in the absence of you
and it screams so loud
I touch myself to fill the space with something
Anything
Anything to keep my eyes open
hoping to see you walk through the haze
don't make me wait in vain
don't make me wait in pain
for your love

The evolution of language

That hard er stings a little 
surprises me, when I read old literture
how ugly people were
the evolution of language however, couldn't be more beautiful
because now it's a word of endearment
 subtract the er add an A
the modern nigger is a nigga
descendents of the first man
 surviving an attempted anihilation
to bring light and wisdom to the world

disappearing acts of heartlessness

It's as if our loved dissipated overnight
the sun set and it was gone
So many people will tell you they love you
They can't be without you
you complete them
8 months down the line this isn't good for them
As if you don't need the sun to grow
I would do anything for you
 Crawl outside myself and give my heart to you as it beats in my chest
my whole being in your hand
 so  you could know what love is
But you can look me in the eye and throw me away
So easily like the epiphany you created
I don't need you, my friends are right
But I want you
I want you so badly my sobs choke my throat
my lymph nodes are sore with sadness
and my eyelids heavy like gold stacks refuse to see the light
But the love I need
wouldn't leave me
Hasn't ever left, it sits here in my spirit
so when you left me, in the same fucking room I've been left before
me and love weeped for ourselves

girl in the window

I had a dream about you
you were standing in my bedroom window naked
On the outside looking in
I laid there starring at your bare breast
the moonlight illuminated them with a blue haze
spotlighting your nipples
which were hard like tiny pebbles across the sand
I imagine myself taking one of them in my mouth
perfect gumdrops rolling around my tongue
you just standing there with this quiet peace
longing to be in the room
 I step out of bed my thin see through night gown falling to the ground
our gaze locked  inside the intensity of longing
watching every night
wishing you could, would climb through the window and whisper
"I want you more then ever before"
while sliding your fingers between my legs
But when I got to the window you disappeared
vanished in the moonlight
where you stood a pile of Sentimental roses