much waited apology

I watched you walk out the door
shoulders slumped
feet rapide
breath heaving
I followed after pushed by my disdain for confrentation and unresolved problems
i was still dreaming in my own reality
in a whirlwin of harsh words but prominent realities i realized how i hurt you
i disregarded your fragile heart
i twisted situations to make me victimized
maybe i didn't show it oftern
maybe i forgot to show it
lost in my insecurites
wallowing in my pain
lost behind closed eyes
but now i'm wideeyed, opened doored
thender to your touch
your waited for me
i give you all apologies
grab my hand
like you use to shen first layed eyes on this new world
your big brown eyes and laughter filled the room
and from then on you validated what i had been preparing for
i was your protector
your best freind
your playmate
your sister
then days passed, leaves changed, lives turned
Like the sun i turned to the moon
foreign to you
i'm sorry i waited so long, but i promise to make up for lost time
i thankyou for bringing me the sun

soulfriend

Today your face flickered across my mind
I could see your hair shineing in the light
How your smile maybe not conventional but congenial and inspirational all the same
Barefeet
kiwi
oranges
sun
naked bodies running threw sunflower fields
how our icecream love binds our outrageously large mouths
life enthuiasm binds us by the hand
In the middle of a rain downpower we sit crosslegged rocking to the sweetsounds of our leader Bob
The sound of Love,calm, and relaxtion that is the beat of our hearts
one beat in unison
In the background of my shallow memory unforgettable memories cast dancing shadows
your first kiss of the earth
giggle, giggle
wind down
polmagrand in teethe
flower behind ear
knitted hat covering disoriented hair
2$ floweral printed dress from that amazing vintage store
lost memory
opinions in grasp still
love in heart until
life and friends in mind
paint splotched on clothees
pictures littering floor with a mirage of your perception
a wonderful perception it is
this my soulfriend
a friend after the desires, cares, and worries of my own heart
yet our small but significant distinguish us as indivuals
i need her to continue
i need her for complextion
the girl that lives inside me
sunny days is where she lives
in a blanket beneath the stars is where she sleeps
beside me is where she will stay