coming home

woke up before the sun
feeling well rested but never slept
in a room that I felt trapped in
sophicating smothering seduction
called my mom told her I was coming home
to lay my head down and submerge myself in unconditional love
theres nothing here for me
but late nights and bad decisions
I called my mom
told her I was coming home
 where my heart is
where I want to be

physically friends with no benefits

I thought having sex with you would satisfy some deep desire
I was wrong
the action itself was enjoyable surfacely
but that fades immediately after we roll over to our perspective sides of the bed
I hoped it would change
I would wake up and feel like I did back when we first went down this path
That person I don't know nor remember
but I recall the feeling of wanting you
only you
late nights envisioning your smile
now the thought makes me uneasy
it takes me longer then usual to get in a space where I can tolerate you
old wounds heal but still scar
visual reminders of how this path hurts
and it ends with nothing but scars to gain
you with your smile and wit
draws me in like a moth to a flame
I am ashamed
I shouldn't have looked back over my shoulder
I should have kept running

Indie vagabond

She who is dirt poor with a wealth of knowledge
carrying a bag of sunshine in her pocket
as rain drops drip down her legs
spent her last token on her word her bond inked on her body
looking at art can suppress the hunger
some angelic friend will feed her
drug her
make her forget and remember
what's important in life
the love you share
the love you create
mystical beings that stomp through the concrete jungle
they kiss you on the forehead and sprinkle glitter on your cheekbones
it's no wonder you are the happiest vagabond I know

coffee shop melodies

In the city where I came into being
listening to a local artist sing alongside his daughter
melodies of a beautiful life and dreams
he sings to me
this city can trap you, but leave you breathless
wondering where time went
reminiscing on times when we woke with the rising sun
to watch power rangers save the world on the small screen
a time his daughter will never know
its' 2012 and the days speed past us
the end of another month
I ask myself where did it go?
live in the moment
because regrets of the past will haunt you
live in the moment
because yesterday soon will be forgotten and tomorrow isn't promised
so sing to me today in hopes I will never forget

morning rainsong

I woke up to the rain pounding the pavement
streaming out of the storm drains
ting, ting, plop, plop, ting, ting, plop, plop
I took it in in one breath
rolling over tucking my chin deep into my pink sheets
I should be like the rain
filling the world with mellifluous music
instead I take a peppermint bath
sinking deeper into the chorus of nature
what will become of the day
I do not know
but I will take it on with an innate since of calm

Tequila mockingbird

Long walks under the  moon when the lights turn out
empty rooms vacant where love was once found
Tequila mockingbird
Just for those deep emotions to be heard
hiding under the cover of strength
we all become naked under the laws of a fifth
He asked me what I'm sippin on
while I laid on his front lawn
a little taste
a little something for those tears to waste
too proud to say I miss you
 to proud to say it's not just you
independence can leave you lonely
a cold heart not concerned with what we should be
a family broken
two paths unkindly chosen
a ripple that effects things that can't be seen on this  night
thoughts that will reveal themselves once I take flight
my heart wasn't ready for this change
tequila mockingbird the adult way to mask this pain

handshake with my vices

Forgive me body
For I have trespassed against you
"Do it Do it" she whispers
Temptation feels good
like getting fingered under the table in public
oh but I shouldn't
inhale relief exhale health
Tobacco old enemy dance with me
"sniff some more who are you to fight me"
my vices are the only thing that invite me
excite me, ignite me
Forgive me body
my youth says I'll live forever
recklessly if I have to
a slave to the fire's light
please want me and touch me like you mean it
desperation picks at my skin
Oh God I can't stop
Forgive me as I get entangled with my struggles
it feel so good to drown my sorrows
to drown in my sorrows
Forgive me  body this won't be the last time