goodmorning

Alarm sounds
drowsy movements
ruffled covers
new world
new day
overpowering thoughts
soft forgiving light
great expectations
goodmorning
Filtered sun
rays of glory
soothing sounds
great awakening
goodmorning
slow steps
feet dragging
heart drums oh so gentle
hmm pancake aroma
undeniable hunger
warming comfort of coffee
good morning
time ticks off in the distance
sundden watchfullness
bustle about hustle around
spasmatic thoughts
goodmorning
hot water
wonderful stream
sleak body
calm collection
heathing breaths
goodmorning
deep sigh
time to begin
blesset morning

much waited apology

I watched you walk out the door
shoulders slumped
feet rapide
breath heaving
I followed after pushed by my disdain for confrentation and unresolved problems
i was still dreaming in my own reality
in a whirlwin of harsh words but prominent realities i realized how i hurt you
i disregarded your fragile heart
i twisted situations to make me victimized
maybe i didn't show it oftern
maybe i forgot to show it
lost in my insecurites
wallowing in my pain
lost behind closed eyes
but now i'm wideeyed, opened doored
thender to your touch
your waited for me
i give you all apologies
grab my hand
like you use to shen first layed eyes on this new world
your big brown eyes and laughter filled the room
and from then on you validated what i had been preparing for
i was your protector
your best freind
your playmate
your sister
then days passed, leaves changed, lives turned
Like the sun i turned to the moon
foreign to you
i'm sorry i waited so long, but i promise to make up for lost time
i thankyou for bringing me the sun

soulfriend

Today your face flickered across my mind
I could see your hair shineing in the light
How your smile maybe not conventional but congenial and inspirational all the same
Barefeet
kiwi
oranges
sun
naked bodies running threw sunflower fields
how our icecream love binds our outrageously large mouths
life enthuiasm binds us by the hand
In the middle of a rain downpower we sit crosslegged rocking to the sweetsounds of our leader Bob
The sound of Love,calm, and relaxtion that is the beat of our hearts
one beat in unison
In the background of my shallow memory unforgettable memories cast dancing shadows
your first kiss of the earth
giggle, giggle
wind down
polmagrand in teethe
flower behind ear
knitted hat covering disoriented hair
2$ floweral printed dress from that amazing vintage store
lost memory
opinions in grasp still
love in heart until
life and friends in mind
paint splotched on clothees
pictures littering floor with a mirage of your perception
a wonderful perception it is
this my soulfriend
a friend after the desires, cares, and worries of my own heart
yet our small but significant distinguish us as indivuals
i need her to continue
i need her for complextion
the girl that lives inside me
sunny days is where she lives
in a blanket beneath the stars is where she sleeps
beside me is where she will stay

pocket

I keep telling you and telling you, and telling you some more
But I guess my words are lost among the many subjects of your mind
Perhaps you could find them read them over and over
Because I need you tot listen to pay attention
Hold them in your hand feel the sorrow feel the desperation
A dove, a baby dove spreads it's wings for flight
Released from it's resting place into the horizon, magnificant, transfixing, envious
Here I will find them for you
I beg of you friend, aquitance, stranger, don't drop them in your bag of troubles, worries, and grieveness
Your bag of 2 cent things
please keep them in the pocket close to your heart
For you to remember they must be near your box of importance
I know your box is full of finacial situations and social relations
But my heart is full of hurt
my soul is stuck in a black pergatory
My eyes wake up only slightly
my lips numb to forming words
Blind to butterflies or childlike smiles filled with hurt painted red lips of hate
Hate the thing that beats children, ignores starvation, spouts racist propagonda, entertains prejuduce ideas,mocks ambitions,slays civilization,destroys or earth
Please I beg of you catch me because i've been falling
No don't speak I told you long ago I was at the edge
Now you have a chance, your last token
I won't be around for another flicker in time
Somewhere lost in people minds
But flying like that dove
I need you to help me spread my wings
She lays on the ground broken an beaten
shattered into puzzle piecies
pick her up
care
love
respond
help her fly into the sun
here you dropped it again
Luckly i still have the strenth to pic it up for you.

Child

See the pretty little girl over there
curls put up in pigtails tied with pink bows
such a pretty thing dress ironed to perfection
cheeks plump the color of a blooming pink rose
you thought you saw happiness
a flicker in her infectous smile
a glimmer of her unchanging hope
oh but her eyes tell the tale
a story not seen by her peers
a story that can only be seen by a long gaze in her eyes,deep,deep in the depths
the dark blue glint is not her moonlit brown eyes but an ocean of sorrow
She dances around under the sun hoping it will heal her wounds
the sun toasting her dark skin
if she could only pretend to be happy
if she only could be in a land flowing with gifts of milk and honey
dancing among the buttterflies skipping threw strawberry fields
a deep laughter at nothing at all a laugh not used to disguise, not a trenchcoat, but a funny face
dreaming of good days to come
a dream lost from her tiny hand
she's so child like you say
she's so joyful
the only childlike things are the scars on her arm
the only child like thing is the bear she holds for comfort
the only thing that's there, the only thing that will listen
if only it could respond a hint to heal her pain
she waits in vain for something remarkable
who is the girl behind those eyes
those mezmerizing big brown eyes
not even a girl but a woman
a woman lost in imaginary escape
can u find the woman in the child?