America the great fucker

The system doesn't want to rehabilitate
It wants to feed off you
humiliate you and break you down
That is THE REAL
That is THE TRAP

Judicial bullshit

We live in a time where
It is not guilty or not guilty
Or what possessed you to commit these "crimes"
But instead pay this money by this date
The American people inherited a debt
The brown and black faces
That didn't want to be here in the first place
We will pay for a debt
That we had no way of acquiring
Clearly the blood of our ancestors wasn't enough
Will it ever be?
Offer your empty pockets and pride
Maybe they will let you walk away
Only just for the day
Because this debt will follow you
Until the day you say ENOUGH!

her eyes

Let me paint you a picture of what I see in your eyes
sunrise
sunset
you know
The rotation of the sun
We've only just begun on this journey
I can't look away
Burning inside your passion
let me just spend one more day
Locked inside your flames

confessions on the sidewalk

Last night
under the influence of the Capricorn moon
I shed all the worries of my heart
The intensity of my pain
My heartache
All the things that won't let my mind rest
I may have scared someone I love
Who wasn't use to such displays
but I couldn't stop
Whiskey shots
Broke down the walls I took so long to build
There I stood
Naked as the day I came into such a pitiful existence
Begging for you to cover me
you could not
The task too great
the silence was enough
I am grateful that you were there
To at least listen
To bare witness to the poison of my mind
And although all my problems are still here
I feel a lightness that wasn't here yesterday
The embarrassment of last night will fade
I am finally able to face the day
Without the anxieties that were weighing me down
The walls were holding me hostage
I couldn't have known that until they were destroyed

2 wise words

Put these words on your wall
Keep these words on your heart
Put these words in your pocket
Take them out when you need strength
Let these words fill your space with love
Stay positive
Your mind is creating this illusion
Negative thoughts will block your path
Dream on
Your dream
This dream
Is all you have
Imagine if you achieved your dreams
Your royalty
Kings and queens
Gods of earth
Demand the love you were created from
Love yourself
No one no one no one
Can love you like you love you
When you love yourself you create a vibration of love
That others feel
Imagine if you gave yourself the time and appreciation
Or even the mental energy you give others
But most importantly
And not to ever be forgotten
Practice
Unconditional love
And happiness will never forsake you

Shitty 5 am poem

Ditched my first love
For my last love
She played me well
Like a tune on a fool
I miss the first now
But I wouldn't change a thing anyhow
I knew what I gave up
No use in fucking his new thing up
She's no me but he is happy
I am lonely
I guess I'll just hold me

Summer solstice 2014

I love you Sun God
The sun priestess sits communing
With her God
Until her skin glistens like burning charcoal
Praying for peace
Listening to the winds symphony
May all the children of the earth rejoice
For the Sun has come to renew life

Silence

I came downstairs
Hoping to get a glimpse of you
Just one more time
But I guess we are no longer aligned
The letter was gone
In this moment all was said
Silence
So this will be the last tear I shed for you
Goodbye my love

Men with benefits

Your first mistake was thinking you were the exemption
Exempt from the careless attitude he showed others
Exempt from the selfishness of taking and not giving
Exempt from the no attachments
No relationship rule
You thought one day it would mean more to him
He would relish the energetic exchange
Love your mind,body and soul plus the spaces in between you don't even understand
Your second mistake was expectations
You went in with low expectations
No expectations
So why are you surprised you got nothing back
Your third mistake was believing your own illusions
Delusions of grandeur love
Home alone waiting by the phone
Hoping for something that never was
Never will be
How many times will you lay beside him and see
The girls calling
Texting
Sexting
Romancing
Before you realize it will never be different for you
He won't change his ways because he doesn't have to
He doesn't love you
Appreciate you
Cherish you
But do you even feel this way about yourself?
Your fourth mistake
And the biggest
So close your eyes and pay attention
Was not loving yourself
Not wanting more and accepting so little
From yourself and from others
So next time when you see the signs
Hear the lines
Forgive him
But say not this time
Because I know what I deserve
Who I deserve
And I'm a queen who deserves the world

Joker

I fell in love with a joker
Smoker
Came in late one night
I could have choked her
Yesterday I was your soulmate
But today I'm a dollar short
And a day too late
I can't believe I gave my heart to a player
Sold my love right after I chased her
I knew she would come back after she realized what she lost
But she never did my sanity is what love cost

Aphorism of love

If only you knew
 I would cross the ocean for you
Just to see you smile
Be in your space for awhile

Late night heartache

The pain keeps me up tonight
Self loathing started the day you left me for her
How am I suppose to love myself
When my best friend left without saying goodbye
She never looked back
Abandoned yet again
Who is my true friend?
Trying to find my identity besides this broken heart
If I could
Disappear into this empty room
I would
Gone without a trace
How you created it
I'm ashamed to say
Sometimes this pain makes me regret the day
What's worse is I don't know how to forgive
How to live

The thought of you kissing her
Keeps me up tonight
Your scent still lingers on my pillow
I had to
Lies linger on your tongue
I'm the fool
Who fell in love
Now I sit her alone
Looking dumb

Malcolm X festival

The original people dance and sing
Locks free flowing like rivers
Their light unmistakably made
On each step of earth
She sings for her children
How beautiful they have grown to be
Roses through concrete
Rhythmic movements to the earth's heartbeat
We can't be destroyed
Withstanding humanities self destruction
The original WOman
Spiritual people brought to a holy land
To thrive
To survive
Protect our mother
Love and cherish each other

Anger

There is a monster
That lives deep,deep
In the pitch black darkness of my belly
I don't know where he came from
Or how he got there
But ever now and then
He is released
He can not be stopped until he is finished
He leaves a path of pain
Words that slice through your heart
Let out when threatened
He comes for blood
I try to control him
But he is going stronger in confinement
Take this as my infinite apology
I can't defend his actions
Even if provoked
One day I will watch him go
There is a monster
That lives deep,deep
In the pitch black darkness of my belly
He is known as anger
He is deadly

Judgement

It's getting more and more uncomfortable in here
Stand at attention for the judge to appear
According to the demons
You are guilty of treason
At the end of this character massacre
Hold strong put nothing past him or her
Sold you the illusion
Mind intrusion
You think you are free
All the slaves agree
The black man can't save you affiliated with them
Hold his tongue extradite him
The rebels poisons sit in the back
Sedated eyes fool you I am waiting to attack
The revolution won't be televised
Big screens meant to hypnotize
Sad faces, petty cases
No money, countless racist
They try to make success unattainable
Change your clothes their appetite is insatiable
By now we all know the game
Don't spend your life chasing money, lies and fame
When the light turns out we are all the same
Only love can survive this game

Young flower child

When I was young
I leapt without looking
Drove miles with no expectations
No destination
Think twice for what
You are lucky if I think once
When I was young
Nothing even mattered at all
Except the taste of your lips  early in the morning
When can I see you again?
I fell in love with you friend
 Again friend
Forever is just till tomorrow
But how sweet is this day
Oh when I was young
It was all possible
And the world was so kind
When I was young there was only time for fun
Hurtful words from yesterday
Vanish with the setting sun
I haven't changed much
Coffee still in my cup
Slow drags of the blunt
I guess I'm still young enough

Gratitude

When I made the list
Of all that I am grateful for
My heart was overwhelmed
Tears poured out of my spirit
How could I have forgotten
Riches beyond measure
I bowed my head with gratitude
Whispering thank you
Till I couldn't anymore

Observations

I saw you walking down the rainy street
You are with a New girl now
Her hair dull and matted
I wonder what void she could fill
Would fill
Is filling
On days like today
I want to plaster the holes in my heart
With a flaccid material
But what good would that do?
The holes will still be there
Waiting for another girl with chestnut brown hair,mousey features and thin lips
Not much has become of me
Nothing became of us

Blue rooms

I'm still here
In the same place you left me in
5000 steps ago
And countless full moons
I'm not an apparition of your memory
I am a living breathing human being
Who thrives on love
You have stolen that from me
Left with not even a goodbye
See you never
As if I was unnecessary all along
As if I was some trivial thing left in your closet
As if my laughter was unwanted
Sounds of disdain
My jokes aren't funny now
My voice drives you insane
I'm alone
This is true
But I'm not here waiting on you

Earth day with your tree

I want to be someone's favorite tree
Standing strong and tall
Swaying with the wind
But bowing to no one
A magnificent being
Growing with time
Until it reaches the height of elevation
In which it was meant for
Documenting history in my rings
Silently watching as a child climbs climbs my limbs
"I remember when you were young so young"
I would say
"You would play in my branches all day"
"Blessing me with your smiles comforting me with your hugs"
"Now life has made you stern and cold"
"But you can always look at me your favorite tree see my flowers blooming and remember happier times"