Silence

I came downstairs
Hoping to get a glimpse of you
Just one more time
But I guess we are no longer aligned
The letter was gone
In this moment all was said
Silence
So this will be the last tear I shed for you
Goodbye my love

Men with benefits

Your first mistake was thinking you were the exemption
Exempt from the careless attitude he showed others
Exempt from the selfishness of taking and not giving
Exempt from the no attachments
No relationship rule
You thought one day it would mean more to him
He would relish the energetic exchange
Love your mind,body and soul plus the spaces in between you don't even understand
Your second mistake was expectations
You went in with low expectations
No expectations
So why are you surprised you got nothing back
Your third mistake was believing your own illusions
Delusions of grandeur love
Home alone waiting by the phone
Hoping for something that never was
Never will be
How many times will you lay beside him and see
The girls calling
Texting
Sexting
Romancing
Before you realize it will never be different for you
He won't change his ways because he doesn't have to
He doesn't love you
Appreciate you
Cherish you
But do you even feel this way about yourself?
Your fourth mistake
And the biggest
So close your eyes and pay attention
Was not loving yourself
Not wanting more and accepting so little
From yourself and from others
So next time when you see the signs
Hear the lines
Forgive him
But say not this time
Because I know what I deserve
Who I deserve
And I'm a queen who deserves the world

Joker

I fell in love with a joker
Smoker
Came in late one night
I could have choked her
Yesterday I was your soulmate
But today I'm a dollar short
And a day too late
I can't believe I gave my heart to a player
Sold my love right after I chased her
I knew she would come back after she realized what she lost
But she never did my sanity is what love cost

Aphorism of love

If only you knew
 I would cross the ocean for you
Just to see you smile
Be in your space for awhile

Late night heartache

The pain keeps me up tonight
Self loathing started the day you left me for her
How am I suppose to love myself
When my best friend left without saying goodbye
She never looked back
Abandoned yet again
Who is my true friend?
Trying to find my identity besides this broken heart
If I could
Disappear into this empty room
I would
Gone without a trace
How you created it
I'm ashamed to say
Sometimes this pain makes me regret the day
What's worse is I don't know how to forgive
How to live

The thought of you kissing her
Keeps me up tonight
Your scent still lingers on my pillow
I had to
Lies linger on your tongue
I'm the fool
Who fell in love
Now I sit her alone
Looking dumb

Malcolm X festival

The original people dance and sing
Locks free flowing like rivers
Their light unmistakably made
On each step of earth
She sings for her children
How beautiful they have grown to be
Roses through concrete
Rhythmic movements to the earth's heartbeat
We can't be destroyed
Withstanding humanities self destruction
The original WOman
Spiritual people brought to a holy land
To thrive
To survive
Protect our mother
Love and cherish each other

Anger

There is a monster
That lives deep,deep
In the pitch black darkness of my belly
I don't know where he came from
Or how he got there
But ever now and then
He is released
He can not be stopped until he is finished
He leaves a path of pain
Words that slice through your heart
Let out when threatened
He comes for blood
I try to control him
But he is going stronger in confinement
Take this as my infinite apology
I can't defend his actions
Even if provoked
One day I will watch him go
There is a monster
That lives deep,deep
In the pitch black darkness of my belly
He is known as anger
He is deadly