her eyes

Let me paint you a picture of what I see in your eyes
sunrise
sunset
you know
The rotation of the sun
We've only just begun on this journey
I can't look away
Burning inside your passion
let me just spend one more day
Locked inside your flames

confessions on the sidewalk

Last night
under the influence of the Capricorn moon
I shed all the worries of my heart
The intensity of my pain
My heartache
All the things that won't let my mind rest
I may have scared someone I love
Who wasn't use to such displays
but I couldn't stop
Whiskey shots
Broke down the walls I took so long to build
There I stood
Naked as the day I came into such a pitiful existence
Begging for you to cover me
you could not
The task too great
the silence was enough
I am grateful that you were there
To at least listen
To bare witness to the poison of my mind
And although all my problems are still here
I feel a lightness that wasn't here yesterday
The embarrassment of last night will fade
I am finally able to face the day
Without the anxieties that were weighing me down
The walls were holding me hostage
I couldn't have known that until they were destroyed

2 wise words

Put these words on your wall
Keep these words on your heart
Put these words in your pocket
Take them out when you need strength
Let these words fill your space with love
Stay positive
Your mind is creating this illusion
Negative thoughts will block your path
Dream on
Your dream
This dream
Is all you have
Imagine if you achieved your dreams
Your royalty
Kings and queens
Gods of earth
Demand the love you were created from
Love yourself
No one no one no one
Can love you like you love you
When you love yourself you create a vibration of love
That others feel
Imagine if you gave yourself the time and appreciation
Or even the mental energy you give others
But most importantly
And not to ever be forgotten
Practice
Unconditional love
And happiness will never forsake you

Shitty 5 am poem

Ditched my first love
For my last love
She played me well
Like a tune on a fool
I miss the first now
But I wouldn't change a thing anyhow
I knew what I gave up
No use in fucking his new thing up
She's no me but he is happy
I am lonely
I guess I'll just hold me

Summer solstice 2014

I love you Sun God
The sun priestess sits communing
With her God
Until her skin glistens like burning charcoal
Praying for peace
Listening to the winds symphony
May all the children of the earth rejoice
For the Sun has come to renew life

Silence

I came downstairs
Hoping to get a glimpse of you
Just one more time
But I guess we are no longer aligned
The letter was gone
In this moment all was said
Silence
So this will be the last tear I shed for you
Goodbye my love

Men with benefits

Your first mistake was thinking you were the exemption
Exempt from the careless attitude he showed others
Exempt from the selfishness of taking and not giving
Exempt from the no attachments
No relationship rule
You thought one day it would mean more to him
He would relish the energetic exchange
Love your mind,body and soul plus the spaces in between you don't even understand
Your second mistake was expectations
You went in with low expectations
No expectations
So why are you surprised you got nothing back
Your third mistake was believing your own illusions
Delusions of grandeur love
Home alone waiting by the phone
Hoping for something that never was
Never will be
How many times will you lay beside him and see
The girls calling
Texting
Sexting
Romancing
Before you realize it will never be different for you
He won't change his ways because he doesn't have to
He doesn't love you
Appreciate you
Cherish you
But do you even feel this way about yourself?
Your fourth mistake
And the biggest
So close your eyes and pay attention
Was not loving yourself
Not wanting more and accepting so little
From yourself and from others
So next time when you see the signs
Hear the lines
Forgive him
But say not this time
Because I know what I deserve
Who I deserve
And I'm a queen who deserves the world